*bye my friend*

Goodbye my friend, Tan Choon Siong

He has to go back to US 

My brother with me bring him to sunway pyramid hair cut

(His gay lou hairstylist there)

We went to play bowling while he went to hair cut

My brother was suck at the first game

only earn 65 points but i get 82 points =)

(proud of myself) =p

He become insane in the second game

OMG strike strike strike

115 points for him while i lose and only get 92 points =(

He really good in playing bowling la

Friend, you have to back on next year ya!!

We will miss you !

*累*

Why people have to so tired?
I'm tired of everything..
I have tried to give up at the moment when I can't survive at this tired world..
Am I the person should get all this unfair stuff?
I also just a human being that not famous, not the pretty, not the best in this world..
I just want same with other girls...
Hope there will be a miracle for me soon..
How tired in my life,
I smile and laugh the louder one in front of them..
I'm tiring of this ...
I want choose my life, I don't want my life choose me anymore! :'(

我不喜欢花，
不是因为它们不漂亮，
是因为自己都不会照顾自己，
又怎样照顾它们。。。
可怜的花，
落在我手中，
就是注定被丢进垃圾桶了。。

*Boring day*

今天很闷，没上课，没工作，没事做，又是颓废的一天~
很想做的却做不到，不想做的就自然不想做了~ =p
真的不喜欢无所事事的~
刚还了四百多块的电话费，想去逛街买东西都没心情了~
昨晚九点就睡了，今早九点就醒了.
一直到现在还是那么精神，怎样过这一天啊？！
无聊的最高境界就是：开着电脑，按着手机，望着电视。
而我就是在做这些事~ >.<
有些人脸上有太多的笑容，是因为他们心中有太多的泪水。
我希望自己依旧是个永远长不大的小孩。
没有破碎的心，没有痛苦的眼泪。。

我的早餐

*Big girl don't cry*

When a girl cries,

it's not over one thing.

It's a build up of anger and tears they have been holding for so long.

They try to put on a smile everyday so no one will see the pain they're really feeling.

And sometimes,

the happiest girls are the one breaking down inside.

*outing*

Last friday went to pavillion with brother =)

Before to pavillion watch movie,

we went to times square played bowling with my colleagues.

First time hang out with them.

Laughed from the beginning until the end, so tired~

After bowling, went to movie "white house down"

It was a nice movie..

I fall asleep at the beginning, 

when the peak of the movie, is time for me to watch it =)

Enjoyable with him.. <3 font="">

 He gave me rm20 for petrol fees =p

 He don't know i took it =)

He shame to take at outside ~

*Alone*

I don't like to be alone.
I think lot when I''m alone.
I'm listening to the music, repeat and repeat.
I'm tired but I struggled on.
I'm sad but I don't want let you know.
I miss you but i stopped showing.
I still care but you don't bother it.
Tears are the words my heart uses to explain
whenever my smiles can't cover up my pain.
Seems like you not appreciate what I did.
I won't do it again since I'm always the crazy one.
A picture's worth a thousand words.
A song is worth a million.
But the tears falling from eyes are worth a billion.

STOP PRETENDING EVERYTHING INCLUDE YOUR SMILES WITH A DEEP HURT

*Him*

他是我最好的开心果~

我伤心时，

虽然不是很会安慰我，

至少他肯听我诉苦~

我开心时，

他也陪我笑~

他是永远和我脱不离关系的~

他知道我一个人，

过来这里陪我~

可是他要回去了，

他不理我了~

真的很Sad下~~~~~

*life*

Feel wanna back kemaman this week,
but have to work~ 
My twins friend gonna leave to NZ and America soon~
Today had a funny class with classmate~
Sir was punish who didn't complete his homework~
His class always that funny =)
Tomorrow no class!
What I'm gonna do~
Zzz..
Great that my eyes getting pretty and pretty :D

*Working*

Continue my work after 7 months break ~ =p
Really a long break~
Not the first time attend meeting,
but lot supervisors thought i'm new,
Worry I will cry or what after the terrible meeting~
I'm not first time see my boss angry and scold people..
Long time didn't work,
do lot mistake~
This job is good cause they give me chance to change =)

Holds her hand in public, it's like saying you are proud to have her <3 font="">
Nice quote =D

*打麻将*

终于搬来新家啦~
不错的一个家啦~
当天晚上和嘉荣，弟弟打麻将，
弟弟在一盘赢了，
他还算算算说：
收你们三块就好啦~ @.@
结果我和嘉荣算算，
只是rm2.90!
他连rm0.10 都要骗我们~
笑到肚子痛~
和他们真的很开心 =D

*I'm a failure*

When I'm single,
I envy who got boyfriend;
When I'm in relationship,
I proud for myself;
When I'm single,
I felt myself fail..
I choose the life,
I have to accept it..
I had try my best fight it back,
It still failed..
I'm a failure ~

*Damn*

Damn hate the feeling ..!.
Not I don't want appreciate this relationship ok?!
Why you'll keep asking me same question?
Even family gives me lot pressure!
I just hope you all support me!
I knew this will happen soon,
just I haven't back kmn, 
can ask same things through phone already.
If i back there, they wanna force me until i can't breath at all?!
Damn it!!
When i with him,
they are the one who not agree,
Now they got chance to bebel me lo!
Fucking hate!!!!
Bullshit to the fellow who said something like that !!
Think before you said !

*人生*

有些事还是要面对，

既然他舍得丢那么多问题给我；

即使我不懂怎么解决，

也要面对！

人总是不完美，

只是我那么不好运，

会遇到两次。。

失败了，

偷笑的人后面多得是，

与你分享的人却少之又少。。

即使痛得多难受还是要微笑，

这次的痛，

不是一般的跌倒就能轻易的爬起来~

Whenever someone says 'Don't cry'

I always cry harder.

*Thanks gor & Jie*

Woke up early in the morning,
Saw this on my table,
thanks to them take care me~
When they asked me about him,
I just can pretending...
So sorry I'm lying~
Love this small Milo already~
Yiak, my eyes still that ugllllllyyyyy..!!

When i text you, it means i miss you;
When i don't text you, it means i'm waiting for you to miss me,
but i know you won't...
until you choose to end of all this..

*Broken Heart*

I don't deserve all of this, 
I can't choose anything since everything is out of my control.
I just can accept it with my unwilling heart.
I hate this feeling coming back to me again!

Don't play with someone's heart
if you have no intentions of a serious relationship.

*Tired*

Should i go back this week?
How i want to face with my parent?
Should i pretending I'm nothing in front my friends?
I'm tiring of pretending happy already.
My stomach keep annoying me but it don't want any food,
My head keep paining but it don't want any medicine,
My heart keep tearing but it don't know what should do..
Who will the next person who hurt me again?
I don't like to be alone here!!

I hate that i miss you,
I hate that you forgot about me,
I hate that you don't want me,
and I hate that i still care about you....

*reality*

Feel like only here i can make myself not so sad..
I know everything can't change,
I know this is the truth,
I know we can't live at the past,
but everyone also know say,
who really did it easily?
I really need a big hug~!
What is love?
What is responsibility to love?
Am i not worth to be love? ='(

Don't come into my life unless you want STAY!

*Feeling*

Had a dream about you last night,
After woke up only realize that only a dream..
My friend told me don't dream about it.
Can a person control her dream?
Can a person forget her beloved easily?
Do you really put down everything easily?
All the memories keep playing around in my mind..
You are the one who cheer me up,
You are the one who hurt me deeply.
You are the one who did everything on me.
I not stronger like everyone thought..
include you..........
If a girl leans towards you, kiss her.
If a girl's hand is free, hold it. 
And if she's upset, hug her till she's okay

爱一个人很容易，
放下一个人很难。。